(I'm sorry if this is distressing to anyone.)
" It is the dark, inaccessible part of our personality, what little we know of it we have learnt from our study of the dream-work and of the construction of neurotic symptoms, and most of this is of a negative character and can be described only as a contrast to the ego. We all approach the id with analogies: we call it a chaos, a cauldron full of seething excitations... It is filled with energy reaching it from the instincts, but it has no organisation, produces no collective will, but only a striving to bring about the satisfaction of the instinctual needs subject to the observance of the pleasure principle."
Freud, New Introductory Lectures on Psychoanalysis (1933)
I am a WALKING CONTRADICTION I should just disappear in a POOF of LOGIC.